Tuesday, November 9, 2010

guna jari pun boleh

dari 9 bulan, dah tinggal lagi 9 hari untuk balek menjejak kaki ke Malaysia tercinta. pejam celik pejam celik, GUNA JARI PUN BOLEH dah untuk bilang berapa hari lagi nak mengadap the darlingsssss nun jauh beribu batu. souvenir semua insyaAllah dah setel. beg pun dah penuh dengan segala jenis barang. semoga selamat sampai hendaknya. ameen.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

dear friend

errr. what should I write?
dear friend (u know who u are),
forgive me for my mistakesss
forgive me for the words u cant take
forgive me for my actions that hurt u
I am just me. Mistakesss are my expertise.
love u fillah insyaAllah...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

hi you!

mungkin ini agak cliche. but never mind. hahah (copyright reserved kahkah)

Love letter to the one.only future husband

Dearest my unknown future husband. (Im gonna call you sayang instead of ‘abang’, maybe I’ll call you ‘abang’ when we get married very soon (mungkin je tau, I tak janji) :))

Whoever you are, I am sure that you are the best chosen by Him for me. I believe that we are meant to be together.You are imperfect, so do I. Yela kan, nobody is perfect. But however, I really want to point out some important things on my expectations after kite jadi husband and wife. wuwu

First of all...which is yang teramat penting... Im expecting you to be a husband yang semestinya boleh bimbing I ke jalan islam yg sempurna. I tahu, I bukannnya bagus sangat kalau nak dapat husband cam ustaz kan. Tapi memandangkan I tak alim la, I need someone yang capable untuk bantu I masuk syurga. At least kan, tak nak la you jenis yg tinggal-tinggal solat ni..please la! 5 kali sehari je kot. Huhu. I hope you bukanlah someone yang bila waktu subuh. I pulak kena tarik pergi toilet ambek wudhuk. Tapi tapi tapi.. I akan support you untuk jadi suami soleh tau sayang. No worries. No worries. Walaupun zaman bujang, you maybe sangat ‘jahil’ tapi I hope bila kita kawen you boleh la nak berubah. Tak rugi kan kalau kita change for good? I don’t mind kalau you tak boleh nak berubah dengan drastic tapi at least we could help each other to improve ourselves kan. Kalau boleh, I nk you jd imam I :). Takkan la mase belajar, I solat jemaah dengan my housemates tapi bila kawen dengan you, I kena solat sendiri sendiri pulak. Nanti bolehla kita doa sama-sama for our happiness. Tak ke best macam tu? You imam, I makmum. You doa, I ‘aminkan’. Lepas tu salam salam.

Secondly, Im looking forward for a romantic husband. Tapi tapi tapi, takdela romantic terlebeh. Geli kot. I ni bukan nya perempuan gedik gedik macam kawan kawan u tu hahaha. Tapi seronok jugak if you ni seorang husband yang bangun pagi pagi, letak rose tepi katil…ahah. ok that’s impossible. Forget it. Dalam novel je kot wujud lelaki camtu! Haha what I mean is that please feel free to show your love towards me. By sending a text message saying ‘ily n imy’ pun dah make me excited! Takkan kot mase you bercinta bagai ape dengan girlfriendsss you dulu, you boleh je tiap detik, tiap ketika cakap rindu sayang sume tapi dengan I, isteri you yang sah ni you tak reti pulak. Oh oh.. tak payah message. Kalau you call me using sweet names like’honey’,’sayang’.’dear’ pun I dah appreciate. You ingat I tak jeles ke dulu you panggil girlfriendssss you syok2 sweet2 je name..huhu tapi kan you, kalau lah you boleh nyanyikan I lagu Maher Zain tu.ala 'Fort the rest of my life' tuu. oh bertuahnya I.

I realized, lelaki kalau ditanya nak anak berapa ramai, mesti cakap nak anak sepasukan futsal. banyak cantek you, sayang oi! Ingat I kilang! Ahha..tapi I tahu tu sume rezeki Allah swt. I don’t mind. Tapi, kalau nak anak ramai pandai pandaila jalankan tugas you sebagai seorang ayah and suami ok. Please la jadi bapa yang penyayang. Bantu I didik anak anak kita. I hope you bukan la husband yg balik kerja, campak baju beg sume pastu terbongkang atas sofa. Anak merengek sume buat tak tau je. I pulak balek keje terkejar kejar masak, basuh baju, urus anak. Help me please. Bukan you je yang penat. I pun penat jugak. Hope you are a responsible husband and father.

Ok la sayang, this does not even finish yet. Kalau la I tules banyak banyak lagi, habesla I jadi andartu. Tade sape sudi jadi husband I. Haha. But after all, biasa la nikah kawen ni bukan perkare maen maen kan sayang, mestila I banyak expectations kat suami dunia akhirat I. You pun mesti laaaagiiii banyak harapansss kat I kn? Hehe.. I’ll try to be your superb, solehah wife! Cepat cepat la you pinang I ok!

P/S (bold kaler merah): please la you jangan gedik gedik sangat sekarang ni. You nak ke I gedik gedik dengan orang laen selain you? Tak nak kan? Bukannya I nak halang you kawan dengan perempuan laen TAPI TAPI pandai pandai la jaga pergaulan you tu. Kita nak jadi suami and isteri yang soleh and solehah kan? Why don’t we start from now? Eh bukan la maksud I, kita kawen sekarang tapi start la dari sekarang memantapkan diri. Jadi seorang individu yang dirahmati Allah swt sebelum jadi seorang suami yang boleh bimbing I ke jalanNya. InsyaAllah.

Lots of love..

Your dearly-loved-wife-to-be


Sunday, October 17, 2010

ampunanMu

i did it once. i did it twice. i did it again and again. and i keep doing it. but yet, He's still by my side.
ya Allah, sungguh luas pengampunanMu. jangan engkau letakkan dunia di hatiku ya Allah. letakkan akhirat di hatiku dan dunia di tanganku. jangan engkau biarkan aku hanyut dengan cinta fana dunia. jangan engkau biarkan aku alpa dengan indahnya kesenangan dunia. jangan engkau biarkan aku leka dengan bisikan syaitan.
Ya Allah, peliharalah kedua ibu bapaku, ahli keluargaku, guru guruku, dan sahabat sahabatku. ampuni kami. rahmati kami. berkati kami. sesungguhnya, Engkau maha pemaaf lagi maha mulia. engkau menyukai kemaafan, maka maafkanlah kami.

Friday, October 15, 2010

mungkin ini yang terbaek

I love the new look of azeilaish.com. Everything seems fine except for the posts layout. I dont have any idea why it repeats itself (err kenape ye? die ulang balek post kt atas). I did try to figure out by analyzing the code but huh, i ended up having a headache! I didnt even know what the codes are for. To make it worst, I didnt even download the full code of my previous template. For the time being, i HAVE TO satisfy with this one until I-dont-know-when. aaaaaaaaaaa stresssssss!

special tribute

hi awak!
hepi befday awak!
may u be showered with His blessing.
may all the happiness be yours.

err..ape lagi ye? :D
p/s: knowing u is among the best thing happened in my life. Alhamdulillah. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AINA!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

confession

i miss my abah.
i miss my mum.
i miss my bro.
i miss themss.
i miss my darlingss.
i miss u.
40 days left.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

deactivate and reactivate

hey. believe it. i am now trying hard not to browse thru the fb. phew. i dont have any specific reason why i did this (mungkin ade, tapi leave it untold). escapism mungkin? tak tengok fb, aku update blog. tak update blog,aku tweet tweet kat twitter. heh. please la belaja.
fyi, senang ah ade application ni kat ipod. before tidur pun boleh update blog. apps ni free je. name pun free, so die offer basics things je la. text blogging je. no pic attachment. apatah lagi video n link.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

wow

wow. i never know this small gadget can give me many big surprises. *sigh*
mule2 tweetdeck, pastu maths apps yg boleh plot graph segale. then, this apps yang membolehkan blogger update blog. wow wow. i sungguh jakun. baru nak explore sume jenis apps. what is next? just wait n see okeh? :)

Monday, July 19, 2010

:: the killer ::

Semester 2 2010
MATHS340 - Real and Complex Calculus
MATHS362 - Methods in Applied Mathematics
MATHS363 - Advanced Modelling and Computation

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

:: EXAM ::

Assalamualaikum wbt
just a quick update actually.im gonna sit for my first paper of SEMESTER 1 examination.stage two subject. Maths270.hopefully,everything will be okay. next papers will be on 24,25,and 26th of june.do pray for me guys.
17th june - Maths270
24th june - Maths361
25th june - French101
26th june - Maths255
the most scary subject is as highlighted above. okay. i have to sleep early tonite.the exam is at 9.15am. sekian. :)

Sunday, May 30, 2010

:: this is not funny ::

please la jangan bagi harapan palsu.aku baru je beria cari tiket kononnya nak balek cuti ni.tapi kecewa je bile tengok2 beriban jugak pricenye.punyala advertise $999 to kuala lumpur.hancur berkecai hati i tau. :(

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

:: mind ur words ::

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Hey there. Kita selalu cakap "orang lain boleh buat, mestilah kita boleh buat juga","i boleh buat, u pun mesti boleh kan" and blablabla. Well, selagi kita tak mengalami situasi yang sama, selagi tu la kita akan keep on saying all those phrases. Yeah, it's true kita semua sama penciptaannya. Dia yang creates us. Semua orang (normal people) ada cukup lengkap anggota badan, akal untuk berfikir, hati untuk menilai, perasaan untuk lahirkan 'empathy'. So, why cant we do exactly the same as others did? I do not know what the reason is. As for me, yeah kita sama dari segi tu. But then, our 'wants' might be different. u want 'a'. i like 'b'. and they love to have 'z'. Anyway, jangan pening pening. It is nothing. Just a reminder untuk diri sendiri supaya jangan senang senang cakap kat orang lain the red phrases above.
Fuuuhhh, so not me la nak tulis ayat ayat skema ni. I prayed. I pray. and Iwill keep on praying. Pray for the best. Pray for Him to guide us throughout our life. He knows best. He is the only one who can help us. Once He said, 'kunfayakun'. Nothing is impossible.
mode: taktahu

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

... and now, u're gone.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
it has been 5 years since i last saw you. but then,you are still alive in my heart, my soul. you are my one and only. forever and always. al-fatihah to my dearly loved abah.

Friday, April 9, 2010

:: for the rest of my life ::

i praise Allah for sending me you my love
you found me home and sail with me
and i'm here with you
now let me let you know
u've opened my heart
i was always thinking that love was wrong
but everything was changed when you came along
and there's a couple words i want to say
for the rest of my life
i'll be with
i'll stay by your side honest and true
to the end of my time
i'll be loving you...loving you
for the rest of my life
through days and nights
i'll thank Allah for open my eyes
now n forever i.. i'll be there for you
i know that deep in my heart
i feel so blessed when i think of you
and i ask Allah to bless all we do
you're my wife and my friend and my strenght
and i pray we're together in jannah
now i find myself
i feel so strong
everything was changed when you came along
and there's a couple words i want to say
for the rest of my life
i'll be with you
i'll stay by your side honest and true
to the end of my time
i'll be loving you...loving you
for the rest of my life
through days and nights
i'll thank Allah for open my eyes
now and forever i.. i'll be there for you
i know that deep in my heart
now that u're here
in front of me
i strongly feel love
and i have no doubt
and i'm singing loud that i'll love you eternally
for the rest of my life
i'll be with
i'll stay by your side honest and true
to the end of my time
i'll be loving you...loving you
for the rest of my life
through days and nights
i'll thank Allah for open my eyes
now and forever i.. i'll be there for you
i know that deep in my heart...

for the rest of my life by Maher Zaen

Thursday, March 25, 2010

:: entah ::

assalamualaikum wbt =)
emm.emm. i have no idea actually. i do not know what to write.what to share. im kinda reserved so that i taktahu lah nak tules ape.tapi rase nak tules ja. macam seronok bila browse my friends' blogs.they are great. their thoughts are superb. boleh share everything. sampaikan cerita yang tak menarik pun jadi menarik sebab gaya penceritaan yang very nice. emmm.emm well. sometimes i do think that how come they can express their emotions tanpa rasa bersalah.tanpa rasa segan.tanpa rasa malu. as for me, i memang jarang lah share ape yang i rasa sebab i takut. im afraid that one fine day, they will use those things to go against me.to humiliate me.etc. call me pessimist. yes i am. ok daa :p

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

:: decision making ::

assalamualaikum... =)
situation 1
mengharungi exam.pack barang.oo oo oo balek kampung.goyang kaki kat rumah for almost 3months++.doing nothing but kacau balqish and qaseh.emmm..ok.let me set a goal.err..refresh driving skill! kuatkan hati.beranikan diri untuk memandu.ok bye.

but but and but.duet tiket.err..1k++ nzd?? iA ade.and bile reconsider tempoh keberadaan di kampung adalah 3months.rasenye memang berbaloi dengan harga tiket.

situation 2
balek just for 1 month.coming back to where i should be and doing summer school.sangat terseksa if terpaksa opt this situation.lagipun,ade orang nasihatkan.kalau nak balek untuk 1 month only.baek takpayah balek.seksa diri namenye.saya pun rasa betul jugak apa yang diorang cakap tu.dalam masa sebulan, apa je lah yang sempat di buat.plus, tak berbaloi kot beli tiket kalai nak balek just for 1 month.well, i am very confident that i would not vote for this option.but, anything can happen.let say saya terkandas dalam mane-mane subjek this year.saya memang kena buat summer school.so, good bye malaysia!

situation 3
stay kat auckland which means i am not going back.omg.memang saya takleh nak imagine ape yang akan berlaku.im afraid that saya tak cukup kuat untuk bertahan for another one year.tambah tambah.next year punya subjects are quite tough.what if tiba tiba saya rasa nak balik sangat sangat.and to make it worst,time tu pembelajaran tengah rancak bersalsa.nak tak nak.i have to pat my back saying well done.what a good decision u have made last summer.

CONCLUSION
well.mesti ada orang cakap yang sekarang baru bulan 3.chill la beb.dah fikir pasal balek dah die.eh mestilah dah kena fikir.karang bile ade sale ticket yang murah, kite tak tahu lagi nak balek ke tak.naye je ok.anyway. i know.Dia punya perancangan lagi hebat.He knows best.memanglah i am very excited nak balek tapi kalau Dia punya perancangan says that im gonna stay kt auckland.redha lah.sesungguhnya.redha itu indah.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

:: fuhhh ::

assalamualaikum wbt... =)
fuh..berzaman berkurun aku xupdate blog ini..tapi takpe..takde orang nak marah..takde orang perasan pun kot..
anyway..just a quick update.. i am now bergelumang balek dengan buku buku..erk?? so not me..well..katenye student kan..tapi agak bersusah payah jugak lah untuk reformat otak after having a long long holiday.. sekarang ni..life is quite good.. living in such a 'great' apartment definitely better than being alone in a small room.. i am loving it! bangun pagi dah jadi satu rutin sebab kelas memang everyday start pukul 8am! oh my God..pukul 8 ok! but.still.it is good for me! wow! =)
okay.. bubye..berjumpa di next entry kalau ade keinginan untuk memblog..
 

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