Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Entry tertunda lama dahulu.

It hurts like hall, yes it was and always will be.

Dear u,
Thanks for all the ups and downs.
Thanks for being there when I needed (notice the past tense here) a shoulder.
Thanks for all the words that made (again, the past tense) my life more wonderful.
Sorry for the chaoses (?) caused by me huh?
Sorry for always clinging to u. Silly me.
Sorry for the words u could not take.
I pray for all the happiness to be yours, someday I will.

Yours sincerely (so and so),
I
BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Bukan membebel.

Setelah sekian lama, akhirnya presenting...
Wohaaa rasa macam sangat pelik untuk kembali menules di sini. Well, time flies. I am now a graduand, even it is still unofficial but the feeling is so woww. After few years of not-so-hardwork, i could feel the sensation of the so-best-feeling ever. Ok actually, i am not being honest about the feeling. Yeah, we are still in doubt, whether to proceed with the hons programme or not. Its either being a student (again) or having the feeling of yes, im the teacher and you are the student. To stay or not to stay. To proceed or to back off. The decision-making is tough, really. Of course, the pros and the cons are there. But after all, who is the boss? Is it the pros? Or the cons mungkin?


... And the decision has been made. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Monday, August 15, 2011

Blissful years ahead insyaAllah.

In 3 months time, I'll finish my study insyaAllah. Pheww cant wait. Then, what comes next? Kalau ikutkan logik akal, hidup macam smooth saja. Belajar belajar belajar then bekerjaya. Balas jasa parent. Bina (?) keluarga. Tapi realiti bukan seindah yang dilihat pada luaran. Dalam setiap kesenangan, ada kesusahan. Memang tercatat dalam our manual guide as a muslim kan? Yang kita kejar hanyalah dunia dunia dunia. Akhirat selalu terabai. Astaghfirullahala'zim. Sempena bulan ramadhan ini, aku bersyukur di atas setiap nikmat yang diberi. Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur di atas segala rasa sakit dan dugaan yang Allah swt timpakan. Alhamdulillah. Semoga aku menjadi seorang muslim yang lebih baik dari hari ke hari.
Random
Ini antara soalan cliche yang bakal ditanya (aku assume):
1. Dah habes belajar ke? Bila kerja?
Aku berkhidmat dengan MARA. kalau dia panggel berkhidmat, bermulalah hidup aku sebagai seorang wanita bekerjaya ehem ehem.
2. Belajar jauh jauh, jadi cikgu saja?
Ok. Seriously aku emo kalau orang cakap macam ni. Heyy MARA yang support aku sepanjang pengajian, so I cant see any good reason why should I breach the agreement. Tanpa cikgu, doktor peguam akauntan takde tahu. I start falling in love with my future profession. So what? Ok jangan buat aku emo sebab aku memang emo kalau aku emo.
3. Soalan cliche habes. Bila nak kawen? Orang laen dah, kamu bila lagi?
Phewww pheww kurniakan aku kesabaran Ya Allah. Jodoh ajal maut di tangan Tuhan. Kalau ditakdirkan jodoh aku sebaek sahaja tamat belajar, aku terima. Kalaulah jodoh aku lambat sampai umur lewat 20 an sekalipun, aku terima. One thing for sure, Im not interested anymore with the lovey dovey thing. Aku impikan satu relationship yang serious ( bukan tak bergelak ketawalah maksudnya), penuh rasa responsible dan bukan main main. Biarlah Allah swt adalah tujuan kami untuk hidup bersama. Ha something like that lah. Im trying to have faith in love after marriage. Redha Allah swt is a MUST in order to build one happy family (at least this is what I believe).

Till then, bye!
BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Thursday, May 5, 2011

faith

memasuki fasa kedua semester pertama mungkin sesuatu yang menggembirakan hati. dan mungkin jugak sesuatu yang membebankan hati. gembira sebab? lepas final exam (first semester), im gonna back home. yeeha! beban sebab? bukankah di setiap hujung semester ada exam, barulah pihak universiti gembira nak lepaskan kami bercuti.

tapi tapi tapi. bukankah Allah swt berkata dalam surah al-baqarah ayat 86 bahawasanya

"Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang melaenkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.."


So, what is there to worry about? as long as we have faith in Him, insyaAllah semuanya akan ok. but but but, of course I should play my role as His hamba to get His blessing. Emmm lets study smart, pray hard!


BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Sunday, April 24, 2011

random awesome

kita tak nak orang arah kita, begitu jugalah orang tak nak kita arah dia.
kita tak suka orang buat kita kecil hati, begitu jugalah orang tak suka kita buat dia kecil hati.
kita tak sempurna, kenapa kita mengharapkan orang lain sempurna?
kita tak sabar, kenapa kita harapkan orang lain sabar dengan kita?
on top of that, why we keep looking for the perfection if there is a lil room of the improvement in every imperfection? phewww redha. redha. moga Allah swt selalu bersama insyaAllah.
BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Saturday, April 23, 2011

random I

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon cintaMu dan cinta orang yang mencintaiMu serta cinta yang dapat mendekatkan aku kepada cintaMu"

1. hey berdebar debar dengan test 332. Im really not into this subject :((
2. Could anyone here cheer me up, please.
3. taknak belajar dah, nak kawen. aaaaaaaaaa gedikss!
4. ok. stop mengarut. I should study instead of doing this!



BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

150 juta kali

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
(aku harap aku berjaya tidak memasukkan entry ni ke dalam draft)
Dari hari ke hari, makin menjadi jadi orang cakap pasal kawen. Its like the hottest topic in town adalah kawen. Walaupun life is getting hectic nowadays, topic ni semacam tak boleh ditinggalkan. Mungkin sebab ini adalah tahun akhir pengajian. and our friends are getting engaged /married one by one. Hey this situation does make me a lil bit 'cemas' u know! hahaha. lame! Semacho macam mane pun, mesti laa gelabah tau bila semua (exeggerate je. not all) orang dah nak kawen! hahaha. To make it worst, my mum pun dah start tanya dah. omg! omg! lagila gelabah. Plus, my youngest aunt (23years old) pun seakan sudah ternampak cahaya untuk mengakhiri zaman single mingle. Lagi lagi laa gelabah. hahaha.

Masa zaman tak-berapa-nak-fikir-panjang dulu, konon berlagak beria cakap taknak kawen blablabla. Now, I chew my own words :P Everything happens for a reason. I pray for ur happiness =). Well, its all about time kan. And along with that, its all about Him. He, who knows what is the best for us. He, who already planned something great for us. Mungkin bukan sekarang, mungkin bukan in two years time, dan mungkin jugak bukan di dunia tapi 'di sana'. The least we could do is doing our best. Pray hard. Prepare for the worst. Hope for the best. Yeah, I know its easier said than done. Then, we should pray harder and harder. Semoga kesabaran itu sentiasa bersama kita insyaAllah.

Ok. Berbalik kepada my lil bit 'cemas' feeling di atas. haha. When those feeling lingers on me, I keep reminding myself. Believe in Him. He knows best. Cool cool. Pray harder! kelakar? haha. Inilah sebuah perasaan seorang perempuan normal I guess. I know its gonna be even harder once my career begins. Parent starts bertanya tanya. The relatives keep talking? oh my!! adrenaline rush!! but I believe, when the going gets tough, the tough definitely gets going as the time passes by. Come hell or high water. kita bolos saja. yeah!




Friday, April 15, 2011

random

scars on the heart BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Saturday, April 9, 2011

penmyblog

heyya. sementara mood blogging membuak nuak keluar, biarkan aku update blog ni. walauupun got nothing much to say. easter break is now officially begins. somehow, i feel like something is missing. this something keeps bothering me. and to make it more dramatic, i dont know what the hall is this-something. permulaan easter break memang agak tidak memberangsangkan. we ended the lectures on last friday with a test. the questions were not that hard but... emmm.. mungkin ini one of the reason why easter break semacam tidak bermakna. ceh. since when aku jadi macam ni! alya cakap holiday = menabung menaburla. yeah so trueee. i just bought a return ticket to go back home this coming winter. haruslah koyak poket bln ni. T.T
tak cukup dgn tu, i went shopping semalam and chinggggg melayang lg 50++. T.T tapi takpe, aku suke. kahkah ironi!
ok kembali kepada tajuk entry, pen my blog ni actually satu free application utk update blog via iphone. but then, aku tak suka. sebab? kaler dia terang sangat. saket mata. and the way we write the entry is quite dull. errrr tak boleh italic bold etc etc. so kesimpulan dia, aku tak guna pen my blog. ni aku guna blog booster. agak cool. dia ade features macam type guna computer. boleh letak gambar, italic, bold, underline etc etc.
kesimpualn dia, err jom beli ipad2? kahkahkah angan angan itu sedap. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

listen

while waiting for mira to come down, i write this entry. oh shes here already.
going to the lab.
doing the powerpoint task.
blablablabla. will be continued one fine day!

entry continued.
actually, im in the middle of a lecture room, giving a blank stare to the pakcik lecturer.
life is getting hectic lately. i got two tests this week before enjoying the easter break. but then, i believe the tough definitely gets going as the time passes by. nak tak nak, i have to face them rite. so no matter how hard ur life is, believe in Him. He knows whats the best for us. He wont burden us with something that we cant take.
hey what do u expect if there are typos here n there. im updaring this blog with my dearly-loved baby. haruslah ade typos. my hands are much much bigger than this qwerty.
tajuk post xde kaitan dg entry. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Thursday, March 31, 2011

No reason

im loving it. please, enjoy!
150juta kali.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

guna jari pun boleh

dari 9 bulan, dah tinggal lagi 9 hari untuk balek menjejak kaki ke Malaysia tercinta. pejam celik pejam celik, GUNA JARI PUN BOLEH dah untuk bilang berapa hari lagi nak mengadap the darlingsssss nun jauh beribu batu. souvenir semua insyaAllah dah setel. beg pun dah penuh dengan segala jenis barang. semoga selamat sampai hendaknya. ameen.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

dear friend

errr. what should I write?
dear friend (u know who u are),
forgive me for my mistakesss
forgive me for the words u cant take
forgive me for my actions that hurt u
I am just me. Mistakesss are my expertise.
love u fillah insyaAllah...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

hi you!

mungkin ini agak cliche. but never mind. hahah (copyright reserved kahkah)

Love letter to the one.only future husband

Dearest my unknown future husband. (Im gonna call you sayang instead of ‘abang’, maybe I’ll call you ‘abang’ when we get married very soon (mungkin je tau, I tak janji) :))

Whoever you are, I am sure that you are the best chosen by Him for me. I believe that we are meant to be together.You are imperfect, so do I. Yela kan, nobody is perfect. But however, I really want to point out some important things on my expectations after kite jadi husband and wife. wuwu

First of all...which is yang teramat penting... Im expecting you to be a husband yang semestinya boleh bimbing I ke jalan islam yg sempurna. I tahu, I bukannnya bagus sangat kalau nak dapat husband cam ustaz kan. Tapi memandangkan I tak alim la, I need someone yang capable untuk bantu I masuk syurga. At least kan, tak nak la you jenis yg tinggal-tinggal solat ni..please la! 5 kali sehari je kot. Huhu. I hope you bukanlah someone yang bila waktu subuh. I pulak kena tarik pergi toilet ambek wudhuk. Tapi tapi tapi.. I akan support you untuk jadi suami soleh tau sayang. No worries. No worries. Walaupun zaman bujang, you maybe sangat ‘jahil’ tapi I hope bila kita kawen you boleh la nak berubah. Tak rugi kan kalau kita change for good? I don’t mind kalau you tak boleh nak berubah dengan drastic tapi at least we could help each other to improve ourselves kan. Kalau boleh, I nk you jd imam I :). Takkan la mase belajar, I solat jemaah dengan my housemates tapi bila kawen dengan you, I kena solat sendiri sendiri pulak. Nanti bolehla kita doa sama-sama for our happiness. Tak ke best macam tu? You imam, I makmum. You doa, I ‘aminkan’. Lepas tu salam salam.

Secondly, Im looking forward for a romantic husband. Tapi tapi tapi, takdela romantic terlebeh. Geli kot. I ni bukan nya perempuan gedik gedik macam kawan kawan u tu hahaha. Tapi seronok jugak if you ni seorang husband yang bangun pagi pagi, letak rose tepi katil…ahah. ok that’s impossible. Forget it. Dalam novel je kot wujud lelaki camtu! Haha what I mean is that please feel free to show your love towards me. By sending a text message saying ‘ily n imy’ pun dah make me excited! Takkan kot mase you bercinta bagai ape dengan girlfriendsss you dulu, you boleh je tiap detik, tiap ketika cakap rindu sayang sume tapi dengan I, isteri you yang sah ni you tak reti pulak. Oh oh.. tak payah message. Kalau you call me using sweet names like’honey’,’sayang’.’dear’ pun I dah appreciate. You ingat I tak jeles ke dulu you panggil girlfriendssss you syok2 sweet2 je name..huhu tapi kan you, kalau lah you boleh nyanyikan I lagu Maher Zain tu.ala 'Fort the rest of my life' tuu. oh bertuahnya I.

I realized, lelaki kalau ditanya nak anak berapa ramai, mesti cakap nak anak sepasukan futsal. banyak cantek you, sayang oi! Ingat I kilang! Ahha..tapi I tahu tu sume rezeki Allah swt. I don’t mind. Tapi, kalau nak anak ramai pandai pandaila jalankan tugas you sebagai seorang ayah and suami ok. Please la jadi bapa yang penyayang. Bantu I didik anak anak kita. I hope you bukan la husband yg balik kerja, campak baju beg sume pastu terbongkang atas sofa. Anak merengek sume buat tak tau je. I pulak balek keje terkejar kejar masak, basuh baju, urus anak. Help me please. Bukan you je yang penat. I pun penat jugak. Hope you are a responsible husband and father.

Ok la sayang, this does not even finish yet. Kalau la I tules banyak banyak lagi, habesla I jadi andartu. Tade sape sudi jadi husband I. Haha. But after all, biasa la nikah kawen ni bukan perkare maen maen kan sayang, mestila I banyak expectations kat suami dunia akhirat I. You pun mesti laaaagiiii banyak harapansss kat I kn? Hehe.. I’ll try to be your superb, solehah wife! Cepat cepat la you pinang I ok!

P/S (bold kaler merah): please la you jangan gedik gedik sangat sekarang ni. You nak ke I gedik gedik dengan orang laen selain you? Tak nak kan? Bukannya I nak halang you kawan dengan perempuan laen TAPI TAPI pandai pandai la jaga pergaulan you tu. Kita nak jadi suami and isteri yang soleh and solehah kan? Why don’t we start from now? Eh bukan la maksud I, kita kawen sekarang tapi start la dari sekarang memantapkan diri. Jadi seorang individu yang dirahmati Allah swt sebelum jadi seorang suami yang boleh bimbing I ke jalanNya. InsyaAllah.

Lots of love..

Your dearly-loved-wife-to-be


Sunday, October 17, 2010

ampunanMu

i did it once. i did it twice. i did it again and again. and i keep doing it. but yet, He's still by my side.
ya Allah, sungguh luas pengampunanMu. jangan engkau letakkan dunia di hatiku ya Allah. letakkan akhirat di hatiku dan dunia di tanganku. jangan engkau biarkan aku hanyut dengan cinta fana dunia. jangan engkau biarkan aku alpa dengan indahnya kesenangan dunia. jangan engkau biarkan aku leka dengan bisikan syaitan.
Ya Allah, peliharalah kedua ibu bapaku, ahli keluargaku, guru guruku, dan sahabat sahabatku. ampuni kami. rahmati kami. berkati kami. sesungguhnya, Engkau maha pemaaf lagi maha mulia. engkau menyukai kemaafan, maka maafkanlah kami.

Friday, October 15, 2010

mungkin ini yang terbaek

I love the new look of azeilaish.com. Everything seems fine except for the posts layout. I dont have any idea why it repeats itself (err kenape ye? die ulang balek post kt atas). I did try to figure out by analyzing the code but huh, i ended up having a headache! I didnt even know what the codes are for. To make it worst, I didnt even download the full code of my previous template. For the time being, i HAVE TO satisfy with this one until I-dont-know-when. aaaaaaaaaaa stresssssss!

special tribute

hi awak!
hepi befday awak!
may u be showered with His blessing.
may all the happiness be yours.

err..ape lagi ye? :D
p/s: knowing u is among the best thing happened in my life. Alhamdulillah. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AINA!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

confession

i miss my abah.
i miss my mum.
i miss my bro.
i miss themss.
i miss my darlingss.
i miss u.
40 days left.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

deactivate and reactivate

hey. believe it. i am now trying hard not to browse thru the fb. phew. i dont have any specific reason why i did this (mungkin ade, tapi leave it untold). escapism mungkin? tak tengok fb, aku update blog. tak update blog,aku tweet tweet kat twitter. heh. please la belaja.
fyi, senang ah ade application ni kat ipod. before tidur pun boleh update blog. apps ni free je. name pun free, so die offer basics things je la. text blogging je. no pic attachment. apatah lagi video n link.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

wow

wow. i never know this small gadget can give me many big surprises. *sigh*
mule2 tweetdeck, pastu maths apps yg boleh plot graph segale. then, this apps yang membolehkan blogger update blog. wow wow. i sungguh jakun. baru nak explore sume jenis apps. what is next? just wait n see okeh? :)
 

azeilaish.com | Creative Commons Attribution- Noncommercial License | Dandy Dandilion Edited by siterrornakmampos^^y