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Setelah sekian lama, akhirnya presenting...
Wohaaa rasa macam sangat pelik untuk kembali menules di sini. Well, time flies. I am now a graduand, even it is still unofficial but the feeling is so woww. After few years of not-so-hardwork, i could feel the sensation of the so-best-feeling ever. Ok actually, i am not being honest about the feeling. Yeah, we are still in doubt, whether to proceed with the hons programme or not. Its either being a student (again) or having the feeling of yes, im the teacher and you are the student. To stay or not to stay. To proceed or to back off. The decision-making is tough, really. Of course, the pros and the cons are there. But after all, who is the boss? Is it the pros? Or the cons mungkin?


... And the decision has been made.

Blissful years ahead insyaAllah.

In 3 months time, I'll finish my study insyaAllah. Pheww cant wait. Then, what comes next? Kalau ikutkan logik akal, hidup macam smooth saja. Belajar belajar belajar then bekerjaya. Balas jasa parent. Bina (?) keluarga. Tapi realiti bukan seindah yang dilihat pada luaran. Dalam setiap kesenangan, ada kesusahan. Memang tercatat dalam our manual guide as a muslim kan? Yang kita kejar hanyalah dunia dunia dunia. Akhirat selalu terabai. Astaghfirullahala'zim. Sempena bulan ramadhan ini, aku bersyukur di atas setiap nikmat yang diberi. Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur di atas segala rasa sakit dan dugaan yang Allah swt timpakan. Alhamdulillah. Semoga aku menjadi seorang muslim yang lebih baik dari hari ke hari.
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Ini antara soalan cliche yang bakal ditanya (aku assume):
1. Dah habes belajar ke? Bila kerja?
Aku berkhidmat dengan MARA. kalau dia panggel berkhidmat, bermulalah hidup aku sebagai seorang wanita bekerjaya ehem ehem.
2. Belajar jauh jauh, jadi cikgu saja?
Ok. Seriously aku emo kalau orang cakap macam ni. Heyy MARA yang support aku sepanjang pengajian, so I cant see any good reason why should I breach the agreement. Tanpa cikgu, doktor peguam akauntan takde tahu. I start falling in love with my future profession. So what? Ok jangan buat aku emo sebab aku memang emo kalau aku emo.
3. Soalan cliche habes. Bila nak kawen? Orang laen dah, kamu bila lagi?
Phewww pheww kurniakan aku kesabaran Ya Allah. Jodoh ajal maut di tangan Tuhan. Kalau ditakdirkan jodoh aku sebaek sahaja tamat belajar, aku terima. Kalaulah jodoh aku lambat sampai umur lewat 20 an sekalipun, aku terima. One thing for sure, Im not interested anymore with the lovey dovey thing. Aku impikan satu relationship yang serious ( bukan tak bergelak ketawalah maksudnya), penuh rasa responsible dan bukan main main. Biarlah Allah swt adalah tujuan kami untuk hidup bersama. Ha something like that lah. Im trying to have faith in love after marriage. Redha Allah swt is a MUST in order to build one happy family (at least this is what I believe).

Till then, bye!

faith

memasuki fasa kedua semester pertama mungkin sesuatu yang menggembirakan hati. dan mungkin jugak sesuatu yang membebankan hati. gembira sebab? lepas final exam (first semester), im gonna back home. yeeha! beban sebab? bukankah di setiap hujung semester ada exam, barulah pihak universiti gembira nak lepaskan kami bercuti.

tapi tapi tapi. bukankah Allah swt berkata dalam surah al-baqarah ayat 86 bahawasanya

"Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang melaenkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.."

So, what is there to worry about? as long as we have faith in Him, insyaAllah semuanya akan ok. but but but, of course I should play my role as His hamba to get His blessing. Emmm lets study smart, pray hard!

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kita tak nak orang arah kita, begitu jugalah orang tak nak kita arah dia.
kita tak suka orang buat kita kecil hati, begitu jugalah orang tak suka kita buat dia kecil hati.
kita tak sempurna, kenapa kita mengharapkan orang lain sempurna?
kita tak sabar, kenapa kita harapkan orang lain sabar dengan kita?
on top of that, why we keep looking for the perfection if there is a lil room of the improvement in every imperfection? phewww redha. redha. moga Allah swt selalu bersama insyaAllah.

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"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon cintaMu dan cinta orang yang mencintaiMu serta cinta yang dapat mendekatkan aku kepada cintaMu"

1. hey berdebar debar dengan test 332. Im really not into this subject :((
2. Could anyone here cheer me up, please.
3. taknak belajar dah, nak kawen. aaaaaaaaaa gedikss!
4. ok. stop mengarut. I should study instead of doing this!

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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
(aku harap aku berjaya tidak memasukkan entry ni ke dalam draft)

Dari hari ke hari, makin menjadi jadi orang cakap pasal kawen. Its like the hottest topic in town adalah kawen. Walaupun life is getting hectic nowadays, topic ni semacam tak boleh ditinggalkan. Mungkin sebab ini adalah tahun akhir pengajian. and our friends are getting engaged /married one by one. Hey this situation does make me a lil bit 'cemas' u know! hahaha. lame! Semacho macam mane pun, mesti laa gelabah tau bila semua (exeggerate je. not all) orang dah nak kawen! hahaha. To make it worst, my mum pun dah start tanya dah. omg! omg! lagila gelabah. Plus, my youngest aunt (23years old) pun seakan sudah ternampak cahaya untuk mengakhiri zaman single mingle. Lagi lagi laa gelabah. hahaha.

Masa zaman tak-berapa-nak-fikir-panjang dulu, konon berlagak beria cakap taknak kawen blablabla. Now, I chew my own words :P Everything happens for a reason. I pray for ur happiness =). Well, its all about time kan. And along with that, its all about Him. He, who knows what is the best for us. He, who already planned something great for us. Mungkin bukan sekarang, mungkin bukan in two years time, dan mungkin jugak bukan di dunia tapi 'di sana'. The least we could do is doing our best. Pray hard. Prepare for the worst. Hope for the best. Yeah, I know its easier said than done. Then, we should pray harder and harder. Semoga kesabaran itu sentiasa bersama kita insyaAllah.

Ok. Berbalik kepada my lil bit 'cemas' feeling di atas. haha. When those feeling lingers on me, I keep reminding myself. Believe in Him. He knows best. Cool cool. Pray harder! kelakar? haha. Inilah sebuah perasaan seorang perempuan normal I guess. I know its gonna be even harder once my career begins. Parent starts bertanya tanya. The relatives keep talking? oh my!! adrenaline rush!! but I believe, when the going gets tough, the tough definitely gets going as the time passes by. Come hell or high water. kita bolos saja. yeah!

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heyya. sementara mood blogging membuak nuak keluar, biarkan aku update blog ni. walauupun got nothing much to say. easter break is now officially begins. somehow, i feel like something is missing. this something keeps bothering me. and to make it more dramatic, i dont know what the hall is this-something. permulaan easter break memang agak tidak memberangsangkan. we ended the lectures on last friday with a test. the questions were not that hard but... emmm.. mungkin ini one of the reason why easter break semacam tidak bermakna. ceh. since when aku jadi macam ni! alya cakap holiday = menabung menaburla. yeah so trueee. i just bought a return ticket to go back home this coming winter. haruslah koyak poket bln ni. T.T
tak cukup dgn tu, i went shopping semalam and chinggggg melayang lg 50++. T.T tapi takpe, aku suke. kahkah ironi!
ok kembali kepada tajuk entry, pen my blog ni actually satu free application utk update blog via iphone. but then, aku tak suka. sebab? kaler dia terang sangat. saket mata. and the way we write the entry is quite dull. errrr tak boleh italic bold etc etc. so kesimpulan dia, aku tak guna pen my blog. ni aku guna blog booster. agak cool. dia ade features macam type guna computer. boleh letak gambar, italic, bold, underline etc etc.
kesimpualn dia, err jom beli ipad2? kahkahkah angan angan itu sedap.

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while waiting for mira to come down, i write this entry. oh shes here already.
going to the lab.
doing the powerpoint task.
blablablabla. will be continued one fine day!

entry continued.
actually, im in the middle of a lecture room, giving a blank stare to the pakcik lecturer.
life is getting hectic lately. i got two tests this week before enjoying the easter break. but then, i believe the tough definitely gets going as the time passes by. nak tak nak, i have to face them rite. so no matter how hard ur life is, believe in Him. He knows whats the best for us. He wont burden us with something that we cant take.
hey what do u expect if there are typos here n there. im updaring this blog with my dearly-loved baby. haruslah ade typos. my hands are much much bigger than this qwerty.
tajuk post xde kaitan dg entry.

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im loving it. please, enjoy!
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